I get that my posts about my mum or my depression can be quite down and some people may not know how to deal with them but that's my Facebook and I won't edit my feelings to suit others. So here's some helpful fun tips for those of you with friends like me who need to vent online to cope with bad days. 
1. If my sadness causes you a sadness of your own, don't fkn tell me that I'm making you depressed. This just feeds my black dog a giant bacon schmacko treat! Feel free to unfollow my posts and we can stay friends or heck just go and unfriend me. 
2. Don't feel compelled to comment how much worse you have it than me. Guilt on top of depression is a shit sandwich wrapped in razor blades. I am quite aware of how blessed I am in my life that I have what I have and that I was blessed with a mother for as long as I did. This does not offer me perspective as my grief is selfish at times and is in no way in competition with yours. 
3. I won't be upset if you don't offer a supportive comment even if we are quite close. Fk you don't even have to like my post with a sad face, honest. My purpose of commenting is not for you to see it but for me to air out my feelings as I have been taught to do to heal myself. I do realise I could do this in a post only seen by myself but I have it set to friends as I know many others that have a dark cloud over their heads from time to time and I'm sorry Facebook but my life ain't all fkn rainbows and smiles so why only post the good stuff? However I do love the support given and those who are in the same boat as me letting me know they too are struggling to cope just for the minute. Isolation is my default.
4. At the end of the day this is me, I know losing a parent is a normal part of life but I have had a life that was far from normal. I am damaged goods. I have mental scars from so many events in my life that will never allow me to be normal. Whatever the fk that shit is! I am off to try to enjoy my weekend and I hope you all can do the same xxxx

Firstly let me say hi there and thank you for stumbling upon my blog. I am a total noob at this blogging thing and at the ripe age of 35, I felt compelled to share my varied experiences. 

I am lots of things. I am an orphan, a mother, a wife, a hobbyist cake decorator, a victim of sexual, physical and emotional abuse growing up & most recently a recent skinny gal - after losing over 50kg since June 2016 being of a size I haven't been since well since say over 10 years ago. 

I hope to talk in my blog about all these things but with the main focus on how losing my best friend, my rock, my biggest fan, my history & my mother to stomach cancer in 2009 changed my life and how it effects the way I live now.

Sounds a bit full on doesn't it?! Well I will try to keep it light and breezy and see how this goes and where it takes me. I hope you keep me writing 😉